I can't stop listening to all these sad songs.  Daughtry is *killing* me right now.  grr.


I've had pretty much nothing to do for the past few days, and it's amazing how much I've thought about. 

The majority of the time, I was reminiscing about the past two years, and thinking of the things that I'd give anything to have back.  It's depressing, but I've learned what's the most important to me in life.

I just hope one day he gives me a second chance.

[edit] : 1:31 a.m. - this has made me horribly depressed now.  great, more jealousy.  just what i need.

Mom ate some of my fruit snacks.   So now, she owes me a new box of them.  =/

Clearly, I'm at a lack for anything to say.  I came home yesterday around 6, because Brian stuffed me in the car and made me come home.  We were outside trimming bushes (turns out, I'm amazing at it, haha) and I guess the heat just got to me.  After a few hours, and five hundred bushies later, I just kinda sat down and felt like hell.  I waited til Brian swept up all the clippings mess I had made, and we went inside to watch tv.  I ended up curling up in a ball, and falling asleep, because I felt so awful.  I was nauseous and really shakey.  It was so weird.  So, after sleeping for I guess 20 minutes, Brian woke me up and said he was taking me home.  I slept last night, from the time I got home (around six-ish) until about 10 this morning.  I'm just now feeling almost completely better.

And, just when I start to get over my writer's block (just a little), my dad has to whine about how he wants the phone.  He's sitting on his ass, like he's been since he got home (around 3) and watching tv.  NO, you don't need the phone.  Just because my mother started her new job today does not mean he has to start acting like a prick again. 

I guess I'll go clean more of my room.  =/

So I'm pretty sure I'm going to go get a job today.  I'm pretty excited, because it's someplace that I think I'm gonna actually be able to do the work (like, no heavy lifting, etc.) and it's somewhere I know how to get to.  Yes, knowing how to get somewhere is a big deal to me, because I'm afraid I'll get lost, frequently.  I've never actually gotten lost, only due to the fact that I've never gotten the balls to actually try and go somewhere I don't know how to get to alone.

I guess I'll be back later, maybe.  I always feel like blogging, but I hardly ever do.  hm.  =/

Yeah, I went through my old journal, purely_envy, and there's entries where he'd commented on, and we'd talk.  Grrrr.  I miss him so much.  Why won't it stop? 

So, to take my mind off of it, I did bunches of survey things.  Here's a couple --






I think I'm done, for now.

Aside from the post earlier, today has been slightly productive.  Hurrah!


Although the stupid Office Max one just crapped out on me! 

I'd much rather apply on a piece of paper, simply due to the fact that some of these websites have not been updated in over a month, and I won't be running the risk of wasting 20 minutes filling out an application, only to have it crap out on me.  Ugh.

I've also been looking for people that go to HCC and will be in the same classes as me.  I'm scared!  aah. 
So far, I've found one person who I've talked to, but no one in my classes (other than Jesse.  I'm pretty much safe on Mondays/Wednesdays thanks to him! =] But that leaves Tuesdays as scary days, haha.)